Monday, November 2, 2009

Flying Solo

Do you ever get in moods where you enjoy just being by yourself? Where you can spend hours if not days by yourself (with the exception of family)? Where you can sit in your room and veg, watch movies, work on your computer, listen to music/podcasts, tweet from  your phone, facebook from your phone, eat junk, eat healthy, shop or not shop, clean, THINK about cleaning but not acutally do it?  Am I a weirdo?  Diane Von Furstenburg once said "The most important relationship you have, is the relationship you have with yourself, because no matter what happens you will always be with yourself."  I thought about that quote for a really long time...maybe I overanalyzed a lil' bit, but the fact of the matter is....I like myself.  I like my life.  I'm so grateful for so many things (to name them all would not only bore you to tears, but it would probably make you really jealous of me...I'm totally kidding) that I find it difficult to be at war with the way things are at this very given point in my life.  Granted, I don't have the perfect life...but who does besides Paris, J-Lo & Angelina right now? 
For the majority of my life I have ALWAYS seen my mom reading, and growing up I never understood why she would READ in her spare time...especially when there were SO many other things to do..like watch tv...play outside....text...camp on the computer etc (I'm such an Orange/Yellow personality depending on which quiz you're talking about)....I remember conversating with her about her addiction to reading. She told me that she didn't always enjoy reading....it wasn't until she got so busy that she didn't have time for herself....reading became her "me" time.  *confused look*
These past few months (almost a year and half) I've come to understand what she meant.  We all need a little "me" time....not in a selfish way, but a way to harness our "chi", get in touch with our minds,making sure that our hearts and minds our communicating, taking time to detox and acknowledging what we, not only, have going for ourselves but the things we have been abundantly blessed with.  My point?  I'm happy.  I have my "off" days.  Surprise!  I'm human!  I feel like I'm finally starting to come into my own.....& that's a good feeling. 

4 comments:

Morena said...

OKAY girl I be having days like that to, and your sooo right we do need our me time!!

AngiDe- Nana's Box said...

What a great post Su'a! I totally agree with your Mom, reading is my way of getting me time in and I love it.

XO

stef j. said...

i LOVE being alone...

in moderation.

seriously, soak it up. you'll have kids soonish and me time doesn't happen that much.

ashley said...

It was really nice to read this post and something I needed to have brought to my attention in my own life, so thank you :)