Thursday, January 9, 2014

I mean.....

I feel like I'm gonna jinx myself....ever since Siaki and I have been dating life has been....well, I've loved life.  Not to say I haven't had trials or cried my eyes out, but he has evened me out, and as stupid and as cliche as it sounds he has literally "completed" me.  I hate gushy love stuff, but you guys, I don't know how to tell you or describe it.  My life literally was lacking.  That's an understatement.  Um....I'm dramatic{?} to say the least, and Siaki just.....gets it.  I don't know.....I seriously DON'T KNOW, but I love it, and I thank my Heavenly Father for him.

So anyway, new year, new goals, right?  Last year we made goals together.....TOTALLY met our goals as a couple: go on 2 road trips, save at least X amount of moolah, and get engaged. Done dah dahz. We actually accomplished so much more as a couple than I ever thought we would (this year, that is).  Super blessed.  I'm not bragging, please don't think I'm bragging. We've totally had our trials, but, uh, hello like I'm gonna dwell on those....forget you...buh bye.

This year we have just a couple goals....they're pretty big so we just have a few.  I think they're obtainable....a lot of hard work.  I'll let you know how they turn out.  We're also trying something new.  We have a "creed" that we're living by.  I know, weird huh?  I actually think it's a little unique and fun.  I heard this quote like a long time ago on "Princess Diaries" (don't judge).  I've only ever seen the movie one time, maybe twice...MAYBE twice.  It's the part where Anne Hathaway is reading the letter from her deceased father and he says "The brave do not live forever, but the cautious do not live at all."  I've remembered that quote, and it has stuck with me since I saw the movie.  I love the idea of trying new things, having an open mind and being brave, so does Siaki.  So that is how we are living our lives this year.  I feel so hopeful for the future.  I hope this feeling lasts and that it is not just preemptive twitterpation (I've actually felt this way for two years.....still goin strong, folks).  I hope this year proves promising for everyone who reads this blog....if you don't read this blog I do not hope for a promising year for you....jokes!

Thursday, January 2, 2014

Just the beginning....Our engagement story

It's been a long time coming.  I'm talking about getting engaged.  We have been dating for over two years, and in LDS-ville that's basically an eternity....basically.  I wanna tell you guys all the little details and everything leading up to the engagement story, but it's much stuff.  I'll give you the juicy juice and spare your overloading minds of the little tidbits that really won't make a difference to you [the reader] one way or another.

About 2 months ago I was getting ready for work and opened one of my closets....out of the corner of my eye I saw a little bag sitting on the closet floor.  I'm meticulous when it comes to having things in their rightful place.  It was a ring bag, and **I** did not put it there.  Siaki had "hid" it in one of my closets (I have three closets, that is) where he thought I wouldn't look.  Bad idea, buddy.  Immediately I started shaking.  Do I open it, and see what it looks like?  I had never seen the ring.  Siaki and the jeweler designed it from a couple pictures I sent Siaki and a couple sessions of ring shopping.  I was enveloped with curiosity, I couldn't help myself!  I stayed strong, I didn't open it.  Instead, I made a very dramatic phone call to my not-so-sneaky boyfriend begging him to give me permission to take a peek.  No go.  You guys, it seriously took every ounce of self discipline I had in me NOT to open the ring box.

A month went by....and another month went by.  At this point I knew he had the ring I just had no idea what he was waiting doubt it was to keep me on my toes and to torture my already over active mind.  I know he wanted to make it special because he kept telling me he wanted it to be something that I remember for the rest of my life, and he wanted a good story to tell to our kids and their kids.  You'd never guess it, but Siaki is super sentimental, ugh I love it!

Siaki had to work on Christmas eve, but he called to ask me what kind of flowers my mom liked,  I thought he was just being like...the best boyfriend in the world, but he was actually going over to get my parents blessing.  My mom said that Siaki was so sweet when he came over (totally scored major points with the flowers btw) to talk to them.  I feel like that conversation is best left to "in person" conversations and not blogging, because I'm not a writer and can't really do it justice.  My parents were very impressed, and uh....have you ever tried to impress my dad?  Yeeeeaahhh, you have to be pretty amazing.

That night we went out to dinner as a family (our Christmas eve tradition).  Looking back (hind sight is 20/20) my parents were super upbeat and happy, and I didn't think anything of it at the time, but I remember thinking to myself "I love that everyone is so happy and energetic."  We left dinner and my mom gave me a long hug and said be safe and have fun, she kind of gave me a funny look....funny as in mischievous like I-know-something-you-don't-know.  I just laughed and said ok.  We went over to Siaki's sister's house to open presents and play games with his family.  When we play games with his family we PLAY gets so intense, we're all super super competitive.  We were so in to the game at one point I remember gripping my seat as hard as I could just to keep from shouting.  Oh my goodness it was fun, but afterwards I was exhausted.  On the way home Jack tried to talk me into opening gifts that night, but I was so tired all I wanted to do was go to bed.  He begged me to just open stockings.....I was so tired I gave in.  He was so full of energy and so excited that should've been a dead give away.

I started opening my stocking and as I got to the very bottom there was a ring box....OH MY GOSH, OH MY GOSH...this is it, THIS IS IT!!!!  I looked up at him, and he told me to open's not how you do it.  I hesitated.  I wanted HIM to open it for me.  He insisted, open it, OPEN IT.  I opened it.  It was empty.  So, Jack likes to play pranks on me all the time, and so when I saw that it was empty I got so mad.  I snapped at him "THIS ISN'T FUNNY, " and pushed him away because he was laughing.  He made his way back to me...I had gotten up b/c I was so annoyed, and just as I stood up.....he knelt down.....on one knee.  He pulled my ring out of his pocket, and after a very sentimental, and heartfelt speech asked if I would marry him and be his companion forever.  As it so happens, Slim was sitting right next to was like out of a movie.  Jack on one knee and Slim right next to him, both waiting for my answer, as if there was any question.  I have had my fair share of heartbreaks, disappointments, and impatient moments throughout my 32 years.  And at time, I've sincerely questioned the plan Heavenly Father has for me.  In this moment, in this very instant I felt a clarity and understanding I have never felt before in my physical life.  All my heartaches, my sleepless nights, my doubts, and worries were so clear to me, and my answer, and the peaceful feeling I have/had been searching for, for all those years was now down on one knee, asking me to walk through this trial-filled life together, not alone! He was asking me to share the sorrows and the joys of life, and to be not just a wife, but a companion to him.  This moment, this instant was priceless.  I will never forget that feeling.  I have never been so sure of one decision in my entire life.  The peace that having Jack in my life forever brings is indescribable.  I know we're in for a bumpy ride, but I am not scared.  With Jack by my side the world has no power to intimidate me.  He was worth the wait, he was worth the trials, and he is worth every heartbreak I've ever experienced. I get it now.  I know Heavenly Father brought us together at the exact right time.  We need each other, and there is nothing better in this world than to find the person you need most who also needs you the most.  I'm sure the novelty will wear off, and we'll become old and weary, but I will always, always, always remember this proposal and how much it meant to me.  I love him, and there's no better way I could spend my life than loving him, and creating a life with Jack.  Cheers to love.  Cheers to incredible engagements.  Cheers to 2014.